YES, Lord.

"It's my joy to say yes to you, Lord. It's my honor to say yes. Whatever it looks like, my response is yes. My response is all that I am.."

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My prayer in this season is exactly that. As I sit in the unknown, my cry is for the Lord to use my yes.

My yes may be weak in this season, but He can still use it.

My yes may be full of little faith, but He can still use it.

My yes may be said with tears in my eyes, but He can still use it.

I am learning that no matter what my yes sounds, looks, or feels like, my unstoppable God can and will use it. Maybe your yes is full of power and courage, and that is amazing. The truth of the matter, though, is that He doesn't care if your yes is weak or strong- He just wants to use you.

I believe that God's greatest desire is to have our full hearts, just as they are. God can and will use your willingness, and that's what saying yes is about anyway. Nobody ever said that you have to be fully confident in saying that yes to Him.

These past few days have been incredibly rough on my heart. My heart feels beaten up by the reality of life and the circumstances that have so rapidly come in and disrupted/delayed the dreams that God gave me for this summer. Today should've been my sixth day in El Salvador. I should've been waking up in the dorm room on the Castillo del Rey campground. Instead, I woke up in my bed in my home in Texas.

This season is not looking like what it was supposed to look like, and it has torn me apart. Today is one of those days where I feel like curling up in a ball on my bedroom floor and just crying, hoping that my tears will wash away the pain of not getting to see those God-given dreams unfold in front of my eyes.

In case no one has told you, it's okay to feel helpless. Perhaps one of the biggest challenges for us is that even when we feel helpless, we still say yes. We still make the choice to hand over the willingness in our beaten up hearts over to Him, so that He can use what we have and who we are for His glory. Is it sometimes challenging? Yes, of course. Is it worth it? Always.

Giving Him your yes may not always be full of smiles and joy, and that's okay.

Give Him what you have, and you just watch the beauty that follows your weak and broken yes.

This season may not look like what you thought or prayed it would, but God is still the same God who spoke those dreams into your heart. He hasn't changed, and He will never change. He is holding you in this moment, and He still wants to use you. Just because it may not look like what you anticipated, it will be a beautiful exchange- your yes for His plan.

I know what it's like to feel confused, sad, and defeated, so I am in this with you. I see you, and I know what you're feeling.

Together, let's bring our hearts' yes to Him, no matter how painful it is in this season.

I am here for you, I love you, and you will get through this. Trust Him.

Always here to pray for/with you.